What If I Don’t Want to Read My Bible?

by | May 27, 2020 | Spiritual Practices, Stu Barton, Young Adults

A Blog by Paul J. Pastor

Yesterday we shared the final week of an Abide Pack (week 10). We’ve journeyed through nine different disciplines, and even though there is more, we chose the nine because of how practical they are to implement. We are excited to share in the coming days how ABIDE will be more than just a pack and guide to spiritual disciplines.
I’ve enjoyed working on this project with Elisa each week. But, as I would compile and write the content I would often ask myself two questions:
  • Why would someone want to journey through the Packs each week?
  • Why wouldn’t someone want to walk through the Packs at all?
It was only until I completed the content of this week’s pack last week that I remembered a blog I read from The Bible Project. I went and reread the post and wrestled down in my own mind and heart why someone wouldn’t want to practice the disciplines.
As you’ve seen in the resources pages of the Packs we have highlighted some books to read and podcasts to listen to, and one of our favourites is The Bible Project. In fact, we have directed you to watch two of their videos as you’ve read through Philippians and Colossians in the Packs.
As I reread the blog I thought it was too good not to share here. I think we’ve all hit a point (and you may be there now) where we haven’t wanted to read our bibles. I’m sharing this blog with you today so you can hear practical and good answers in what to do if that is you or maybe you in the future.
This piece is from the Becoming Better Readers series on The Bible Projects Blog, focusing on bridging rich ideas from the Bible with the realities of spirituality today. The author is Paul J. Pastor who is an author, editor, and listener residing within the Oregon state.

We’ve recently considered how to better read the Bible with our whole selves. But at this time of the year, many of us wrestle with a more basic problem: what if we don’t want to read the Bible in the first place?
This can be tough to even admit for some of us. For many Christians, Bible reading––especially as part of a daily devotional schedule––is one of the big “shoulds” of faith. In fact, that’s likely part of the issue. Many of us have been told that we should read the Bible, but we’ve hardly ever been told how to stick with it or why we should want to in the first place.
But there’s nothing wrong with simple honesty. Given enough years of growing faith, we simply will encounter times when the Bible feels “blah.” (Yes––that’s the technical theological term.) Such times are a chance to learn, shake things up, and move toward the reason we’re passionate about living Bible-rich lives in the first place––finding our place in the story that points to Jesus. With that in mind, I’d like to offer four things that any of us can do when (not if) we don’t want to read the Bible.
1. Ask an Honest “Why?”
We often live “the unexamined life,” so bringing thought and intention to the why beneath our feelings or choices can be powerful. At first many of us may be tempted to stick a quick shame message here, like: “I know my heart is wicked. I don’t even want to read the Bible anymore. Man, I am a terrible Christian…
Wait. We wouldn’t even care about caring if this was the case, right? The very fact that we are bothered when we don’t shows how much we care that we do. That is a profound place to begin. Yes, our very lack of desire might reveal how deep our real desire is.
And when we ask the honest “why,” we’ll often gain rich insight into our spiritual experience. Perhaps what lies under the why is the fact that we’re exhausted from overwork, extra childcare duties, a brutal school schedule, or the stress of unemployment. Perhaps what lies under the why is grief, or a need to get outdoors and move, or a longing to socialize. In any case, probing beneath the surface often yields real insight. This helps us start with grace for ourselves and affirmation of our deep desire to be a person whose life is deeply connected to the Bible.
2. Trust Your Spiritual Instincts
Just like you can (in general) trust the signals of your body for hunger, thirst, sleep, and exercise, you can (in general) trust your spiritual instincts too. This doesn’t mean that we should follow our feelings without critical reflection, but sometimes when we don’t want to read, there’s some pause or practice other than Scripture reading that could be valuable to engage in.
For me, it was encouragement from a mentor to turn my daily commute (which was then six miles by bike across prairie trail in Illinois) into time spent freely with God. It was a post-seminary season where I was positively stuffed with the Bible in three different languages, and reading it felt impossible, exhausting, and discouraging. It was so freeing to consecrate those rides, and I often found that phrases and passages of Scripture would come to mind as I prayed and pedaled. In hindsight, I needed to trust my spiritual instincts, which were saying, “Enough reading! You need some time to process this!
You might be surprised at what comes up when you give yourself permission to trust your gut while still pursuing the wisdom of God. And when you’re ready for more classic reading again, you’ll appreciate it that much more.
3. Switch Things Up
Along these lines is the ability to proactively introduce a positive change. After all, the human mind is wired to keep itself sharp by seeking variety. “A change is as good as a rest,” the old saying goes, and it is right. A few ideas:
  • Try a new translation or a new layout
  • If you read the Bible, try listening to it (free audio versions abound)
  • If you listen to the Bible, try reading it (try one of the many artfully designed versions available today)
  • If you’ve hung out in the same passages for while, switch to something you’ve never read or have rarely read
  • Try reading a familiar book of the Bible from the last chapter to the first (sure it’s weird, but seriously––you’ll be surprised by the details you notice in reverse order)
  • Choose an important theme or image and follow it carefully through a book or section (“love” in Deuteronomy is an old favorite, as is “silence” in the book of Mark)
  • Select a passage and use it as a prompt for painting, writing, prayer, or another creative response. (There’s a reason the Bible has inspired centuries of art and thought!)
  • Watch one of Bible Project’s videos before your reading (browse the full list of videos here)
The basic principle is simple: try something new, something that feels natural and engages you, and have fun with it.
4. Know It’s Not Forever
This is equally true no matter how you feel about the Bible at this moment in your life. Like the seasons of the year, each of which has important work, our times of varying response to the Bible have their purpose. But in any case, they won’t last forever. Feelings come and go, even as the roots of our desire deepen.
In a balanced life, engaging with the Bible should be both a discipline and a desire. My hope is that we can become better about encouraging each other to cultivate a rich desire to be frequently and deeply in Scripture. As well, I hope that we can help one another find practical strategies to better understand and enjoy the Bible’s rich (but complex) literature.
What’s important is to do your best to let this season do its work, remembering that engaging the Bible is meant to be done long term, over the course of a lifetime, not in the span of a few months or a year. When we truly embrace that, we’ll be able to make some peace when the times come-––as they will––when we just don’t feel like reading the Bible.

This piece is from the Becoming Better Readers series, focusing on bridging rich ideas from the Bible with the realities of spirituality today.

Paul J. Pastor is an award-winning writer and author of several books, including The Face of the Deep, The Listening Day devotional series, and Palau: A Life on Fire (with Luis Palau).

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Stu serves as our Young Adults Pastor within our church. He gives vision, teaching, and leadership to BYA. He is both British and American as he was born in Liverpool, England, and lived in California, USA, before moving to Edmonton in 2016. He is married to Sarah and has two kids, and one on the way this summer. Pastor Stu desires to see this generation become resilient disciples by being with Jesus, becoming like Jesus, and practicing the ways of Jesus. It won’t take long for you to see that he loves people deeply, but also loves the original football (soccer) maybe a little too much!